Heaven Queen

Divine empress of the holy aspects of the afterlife,
stripper of the pain,
yet lesser known among the humans.
On this ominous,
heartbroken night,
I shall grovel before my bed,
and pray for a silver lining in the dark clouds.
Where is the love in my life?
How do I find acceptance by one,
among the lust and denial among the world?
For me,
is there such thing as returning the unconditional feelings,
you've given to somebody?
I've loved for a very long time,
but those I've given it to,
never did want to mirror the feeling.
For these reasons I would want to know the answers.
But in another lifetime...
I thought I found somebody that would reverse,
these...
these futile emotions I've expressed,
only to writhe in defeat,
ever so miserably,
by one to easily steal her heart,
and so she will love him.
The thief is none other but a close friend,
but Fate will show that I'm still destroyed.
These heartbreaks have happened too many times...
And I start thinking that the sun will no longer rise on me,
for life.
I cannot rise the star for a new day,
if I cannot raise my flesh...
But this girl seems worthy...
and I want to continue holding onto her,
for my stubborn beliefs,
despite the hands being locked,
and not the only soul,
watching the infinite horizon...
I no longer want to care,
the past I just witnessed,
I want to leave it all behind and move on,
carrying the sense of hope for her,
of Fate turning to my favor.
I want to mask my genuinity,
with the smiles to see.
I promised I wouldn't dwell so strongly upon her.
It's just that the suffering is too dire,
the days of witness give me severe aching in blood and bone.
I've gone through times like these too much.
So I ask of thee of three pleas:
for the granted wish of at least two of three outcomes:
Heaven Queen,
please marry me,
to wash away the past of the truth.
This little boy,
long deprived from the true feelings of being loved,
in a family of no more,
is left with nobody to look to.
And forevermore I promise to love.
Heaven Queen,
please carry me,
away from all of my pain.
Give my soul to the angels or the devils,
bless me with wing,
or curse me with horn,
this child will fly with thee or watch thee.
Heaven Queen,
please bury me,
under the flowers that you've bloomed.
Take the heart if you like,
I suffered from no earthly damage,
but all that cannot be seen.
But with thy sight beyond human,
where has the world taken it to...?
My merciful mistress,
I am complete with what I've asked of.
Despite my youth,
I've resisted the weakness and the tremors,
my bones are enduring.
I've maintained them to keep me kneeling before thee,
just so I could tell thee of my pain,
before I fall on my floor for my final rest,
and refuse to wake for another day on this Earth.
My soul is for you to take,
for my soul has to pray,
for the dreams I still have as one myself.
Heaven Queen,
you have custody of me,
and shall I hope that the limit I've set for my request,
shall you exceed...